I want to write a bit about what has been on my heart lately and it happens to perfectly correlate with today’s holiday.
I can’t say I know the origin of this day, but I can say what it means to me to be a woman in 2o16. I think it’s a day to celebrate what we bring to the world besides, you know, children. Personally, I see myself as a rather emotional being who tries her best to be stoic in hectic situations. I prefer to communicate my feelings with words and don’t consider myself a crier. When problems arise in my own life, I find it difficult to ask for help or confide in someone else. When it comes to my own feelings, I often hide my fears & insecurities in favor of seeming unaffected. Today I’m going to set aside my pride and let ya’ll know my current struggle.
I’m feeling a bit aimless. I know what I want, but I don’t know how to go get it. That’s a lie. I know how to go about it, but I’m scared.
From day one, I’ve known that I love to travel and that I love to write. Hence the whole travel blog venture. But as a
woman person in 2016, it’s quite tough to wrap my head around pursuing a passion that may not yield a profit for who knows how long. I’m scared I will commit fully only to fail and be forced to spend my life doing something I don’t love.
I prayed today that God would show me my purpose. That if my purpose is to write, to inspire me. That if my purpose is to travel, to send me. I then get on my phone and get an email from Hostelworld about why women should travel solo. My roommate and boyfriend can attest to this being on my mind lately, as I’ve been testing the waters by throwing out things like, “What if I went to Thailand by myself!? Wouldn’t that be crazy.. Unfortunately, it’s very easy to come up with reasons as to why women shouldn’t travel solo. However I refuse to live in fear of what I can’t control (which is really hard for me considering everything I fear stems from a lack of control).
So here I am, reminding myself that I need to trust that God is in control of my life and all I need to do trust that.
So here I am, asking all you travel bloggers to tell me about your solo experiences in hopes that I can let go and just go!