I’ve been 13 going on 30 ever since I was invited to be a part of the gifted and talented program (humble brag) in elementary school. My parents told me to “slow down” rather than “grow up”, but I would hear none of it. Rebellious was never a word used to describe me, I have never even been grounded. At one point I thought I missed out, but in reality, I set myself up to be a different kind of reckless. My parents rewarded me for being a goodie two shoes by funding my degree. I showed my appreciation by graduating with a 3.97 GPA (eight months later and I’m still upset about that B). Holy smokes, it has been eight months. What have I even done in my adult life? Time for some introspection.
I feel like I have done nothing and everything. I’ve flirted with the idea of grad school, dabbled in different industries and day dreamed of various career paths, but all I’ve realized is that I’m anxious. Not the kind of anxiety that comes with post-grad blues, but the one that comes with passion. Let me explain. College is accomplished in sections; test by test, class by class, semester by semester – one step at a time towards something tangible. I still think in those terms and I think a lot of my peers do as well. Except the end goal isn’t a degree anymore. Heck, I don’t even know what the end goal is. Finding your calling? Your soul mate? Happiness? Security? Here’s where I get reckless and passionate and anxious about the future. For once in my life, I don’t have a timeline. But I do have a life plan of sorts that has been in the works since infancy. Be stellar. Make an impression. Life the life I’ve imagined. The particular life I have in mind for myself is spontaneous. It doesn’t include benchmarks or a deadline for marriage and children. It doesn’t include fear; especially of the unknown. It doesn’t include complacency or boredom. However, it does include learning, from anyone and everything. It does include experiencing, the good and the bad.
I have opened myself up to possibilities of any kind. I want to take on projects that the old Teylor couldn’t prepare for. Recent graduates… I hope you realize that now is the time to spread yourself thin. Test the waters. Say yes. Challenge yourself. Kick the bad habits. Say goodbye to procrastination. Make things happen. Save money. Take trips. Simply put, your life is no longer in the hands of your parents or professors. So you best get to kickin ass and takin names.